I have always felt that I had all the time in the world to do all the stuff I dreamed of doing. I kept on saying that I’ll do this and that stuff someday when I get the chance but the truth is that “someday” may not come at all because I’ll never know if I’ll still be around when that “someday” comes.
I know that death comes to everyone. It’s one of those rare things that is sure in this world. Sooner or later we’ll all go there. I knew this, but somehow the concept of death is still hard to grasp. The idea of dying and leaving this world seems surreal to me. I felt that I will always have tomorrow, that my tomorrows won’t run out. And now my tomorrows have reached its end, I’ve run out of tomorrows. All I have now are my yesterdays.
My yesterdays are wonderful yesterdays. They may not be as exciting or as thrilling as others’ yesterdays but they sure are full of love. I was lucky to walk this world surrounded with the most loving people. I know most of them are here, saying their goodbyes for the last time. I want all you to know that you made this life worth living. I may have failed to let every single one of you know how glad I am to be able to spend this life with you. There’s no better life than having all of you around me.
I led a simple and ordinary life. I wasn’t a celebrity so there won’t be a TV special remembering my life. I wasn’t a hero so I won’t have any statue built in my memory. I wasn’t a philanthropist so I won’t have a library named after me. I was an ordinary person who lived this life and loved the people around me. I have nothing extravagant to brag about except for my heart. I loved the best way I know how and loved to the fullest. I learned to love this way because the people around me showed me the same love.
Mom and Dad, thank you for everything. I became the person I was because of you. I have always told you how thankful I was for having such wonderful parents as you guys. And for the last time, I want to tell you that I appreciate all the things you’ve done for me. Don’t weep for me, God will take care of me.
To my brothers, we are a family. We may not be vocal about how we felt for each other but we knew that when everything else fails, we will always have each other. It’s the unspoken love that is so special between us. I love you all.
Richard, leaving you is the most painful thing I can ever do. I didn’t want to leave this world knowing that I’ll be leaving you too. But death is something I don’t have any control about. As much as I wanted to stay, God has other plans for me. I’m just glad that in my short life, I was able to spend some of it with you. The times I spent with you were the most wonderful memories I have. You have shown me a different kind of love. You taught me that love is not about constant togetherness or all about the euphoria of being in love. Love is based on something much deeper, something that transcends time and distance. As I leave this world, there is that hope that in my next life I will still be lucky enough to find you.
To my friends, thank you for adding meaning in my life. You made this world a much happier place to live in. I may be gone but I hope that the wonderful memories we all had remains.
This may be the last time I’ll be saying this…goodbye, see you later!
